Talk about Discouraged.....

So, my goal before I leave for Hawaii(in 4 weeks and 1 day), was to be down to my "goal" weight!

The goal started 2 months ago and in 3 months, I thought 'I can lose 30 pounds no problem!' My problem now, i've GAINED 20....So, now I'm 50 pounds heavier than I want to be and it sucks! I mean, I can't say that I didn't work towards losing weight the last few months, but still, I'm just hurting myself self and self esteem! I'm also heavier "this time in the month", so it's not as horrible as I feel it is!!

I'm regaining my goal! If I can't be my size 1-2 before my trip to Hawaii, I want to at least lose a couple of pounds by then :) Setting small weight loss goals has always been the best way for me! I lost 45 pounds once and MAN, did that feeling ROCK!! I went from a size 14/16- a size 8 firmly! Now, it's about a size 10....

Anyways...My life has been crazy lately and with the pending anniversary, it's going to be the roughest one yet! 10 Years since my aunt that I adored has been gone! Keeping myself strong, and my head held high, but somedays, it seems impossible!! Oh well, all of this is making me who I am now!!

Wish me luck :)